Just a lot of random, different thoughts and I haven’t written something like this in a while, so I figured it might help by writing it all down and getting it out.
First of all, I don’t understand people who have to try to hurt others because they are hurting themselves. I’m guilty of saying mean things occasionally when I’m upset, and I believe it is somewhat natural to do this with the people who are closest to you because you believe they will always be there…but some people just take it to a whole new extreme. Trying to tear people down because you are feeling low yourself is just pathetic. And from this day forward, I vow to never treat someone like that again. I believe in karma and the golden rule and I’m going to make an honest effort to live my life by that every day.
Also, it amazes me how judgemental people are, especially of those they have never met! You don’t know someone’s life story, you don’t know what’s made them the person they are today, and most of all, you don’t know what you would do in any given situation until you’ve been through it yourself. So stop judging. Be open minded. And be kind because everyone is facing a hard battle.
Along the same note, love isn’t about someone’s looks. It’s about the connection you feel to that person, supporting each other and making each other laugh. I can’t believe how shallow some people are. Confidence is such a huge problem in today’s society. I believe everyone should feel good about themselves, know that they are special and capable of making a difference. I struggle with confidence issues, I’ll be the first to admit I wish I was prettier or skinnier, blonder or tanner or whatever today’s society portrays as beautiful. But I try my best to put on a front because I know there are people out there who do, and who will, love me for exactly who I am, even if I’m still learning who I am.
I was told today that I’m just a kid. Ok, I guess I can see that. I’m still young, I’m still finding my place in this world. Life can be hard, but you can’t take it too seriously. You have to find humor in hard situations and you have to find pleasure in the small things to get through. I’d much rather be young, silly and hopeful than old, serious and cynical.
I was also told today that I’m not a “real” woman. Well, then tell me what the hell the definition of a real woman is, because I’d say I’m pretty damn close. I work hard, I stand up for myself, I have dreams that I’m working towards. I’m sorry I didn’t take your shit, I’m sorry I didn’t let you use me. But I think those things just prove even more that I’m a “real” woman.
So basically, what I’m trying to say is I know I’m a good person. Your opinion/approval about my life isn’t needed because I’m going to do what I see fit.
On a lighter note, some other random thoughts I’ve been having….
I’m going to volunteer for the Indiana Bulldog Rescue, and hopefully be able to foster bulldogs at some point. I think that would just be amazing.
I want another tattoo, possibly two. I have a quote in mind that I really like, I just don’t know where to get it! And the other I’m thinking about is a sunflower, they were my Grandma’s favorite and I miss her terribly. But I don’t know where I should get that one either….anyone have any suggestions?
Anyway, I think that is enough venting for one day. Until next time :)
